i am a clown

i am clown

with a smiley mask

joking and laughing

here and there

make everyone laugh

and forget all their problems

i am a clown

that nobody care

nobody know

always get to left behind

only can look from distance far

others happiness and joyfulness

i am a clown

behind the mask

left only tears

waiting to fall 

in the dark

when no one hear

i am a clown

happy face i bare

while inside no one could feel

its hurtful, its real

the pain i couldn't longer feel

falling into pieces i am

waiting for a hand to help me to stand

waiting for a shoulder for me to weep

waiting for a hope that can make me shine again

i'm still waiting~don't leave me alone~cuz i hate how it feels~to be left behind~again and again