Tuesday, 23 April 2013

my fear and my tears


Found this meaningful poem when searching for poem that can describe my feeling right now 
... my biggest fear ever...

My Fears
© Samantha Medlin
Getting left behind
Not being loved
No one understanding
No one caring
are
my fears

I had a dream 
I was lost
No one tried to 
find me
No one cared
No one listened
understood

Feeling left out
Feeling like no one 
understands
Feeling like No one 
can hear me
When I’m screaming 
to be heard
Destructive behavior
I have

Wishing I could change
Wishing I could make it
better
Wishing for another chance
Wishing for someone who 
will come and save me
from myself.

my fears
not being heard
being left behind
not being understood
no one caring.

how can I
disappear
make people
understand.

Disappear from
this world
Show people what
It’s like to
worry, misunderstand
not care.

my fears,
people laugh
people tease
people misjudge 
people misunderstand 
me.
Behind my back,
they laugh,
tease,
hurt,
so I can't see
them. It hurts.

Now,
I hide this
pain 
in my heart
making sure
No one sees
my hurt,
Pretending to be
someone 
I'm not.

Trying so hard
to fit in
to cover the 
scars, trying
so hard,
to be liked
by you.

My feelings
disappearing
No regrets
Hoping no one 
resents me.

After my dream 
ended 
I wondered...
What am I leaving..
When I leave here?

The pain
I've caused the hurt
the disappointments
The worries

Hoping, now
people understand
people miss
people hear me
and others 
Forgetting all,
all the pain, and hurt
I learned to hide
inside
buried deep in
my heart. No way
out

My fears...are these

p/s: this poem, describe totally how I feel the feeling that I can't express in word myself, the feeling perhaps no one can understand the pain and deep scar that still bleeding from time to time,that I have in my heart.

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